Alec Baldwin is opening up about how the past several years have affected his health in the aftermath of the 2021 “Rust” incident that resulted in the death of cinematographer Halyna Hutchins.
The 67-year-old star of the reality show “The Baldwins” spoke candidly during a recent appearance on the podcast “Dopey: On the Dark Comedy of Drug Addiction,” where he reflected on ongoing depression, physical health struggles, and the emotional toll the legal proceedings took on him and his family.
‘The Deepest Pain Was for My Wife & My Kids’
Baldwin said his greatest concern throughout the legal ordeal was the impact on his family.
“The people I was most concerned about, the people I had the deepest pain for, were my wife and my kids,” he said on the podcast.
Baldwin shares eight children under 13 with his wife, Hilaria Baldwin, as well as daughter Ireland, 30, with ex-wife Kim Basinger.
“My kids would see me sitting in a corner, I couldn’t even move,” Baldwin said. “There was a point in time where I took a nap every day for a year, right after they announced they were going to raise the charges again.”
‘It Broke Every Nerve in My Body’
Baldwin described the emotional and physical toll the case took on nearly every aspect of his life.
“I don’t want to dwell on this, I just want to say that this was very painful for my wife and my family, my sisters and brothers, and so forth, my colleagues,” he said.
“And I can tell you, it broke every nerve in my body, spiritually, financially, work-wise, my career, my wife, my kids, my friends, my health.”
He added that the strain manifested in serious health problems.
“I mean, what it’s done to my health. I mean, if I told you what my health conditions have been since October 21st of 2021, it’s taken 10 years off my life. It’s taken at least 10 years off my life.”
Baldwin Admits He Had Suicidal Thoughts
On the podcast, Baldwin also spoke candidly about experiencing suicidal thoughts in the months after the charges were refiled.
“It’s really kind of unappealing to me because to talk about killing yourself and to actually kill yourself are two so profoundly distinctive things,” he said.
“I think a lot of people — I think countless people think about killing themselves and ending their life, and then very few do.”
He continued, “And for me, I remember, I used to lay there in bed and go, ‘Oh God, I can’t wake up another day and have it be the same. It’s the same every day. And I can’t do it.’ But somehow I found the faith in God to, you know, not kill myself tomorrow. Let’s wait one more day.”
As Baldwin continues to process the aftermath of the case, his remarks offer a rare and deeply personal look at how the legal battle affected not just his career, but his health, his faith, and the emotional well-being of his family.
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Alec Baldwin Vulnerably Reveals Heartbreaking Mental Health Struggles